Long Distance

Whether it's 200 miles or 2000 miles, being in a long distance relationship is a test that no couple ever willingly wants to take. This August, my boyfriend and I started attending different schools, and after almost 2 years of dating, and every second of it spent with each other, we didn't know how we would handle not being able to drive to each other's house every night after a bad day, or when we wanted to lay around holding hands listening to music. He's my best friend, and I'm empty without him.

What sucks about love is it slaps you in the face with everything at once. That single person who can make you believe that humanity is not going to Hell and that one soul that you can feel touching yours when you're crying in their arms. And what sucks even more about young love is that life tries to get in the way of your plans. You're growing up, and they're growing up, and there are so many paths that try to separate you, but how can you stand by and let them? This is your 1 out of 6 billion, your best friend, the one person who gives you hope on those days where nothing could seem worse. How can you let life take them away from you?

Long distance is tricky. Phone calls that are hours upon hours long. I miss you's. FaceTime's and texts and I can't wait to see you's. Lots and lots of cry's. You each live your own lives and experience different things in the day. I'm jealous of the girl that takes his coffee order in the morning. I'm jealous of the student who sits next to him in his class. I'm jealous of his sister who gets to hug him and watch him sleeping in the next room. I'm jealous of anyone who comes in contact with him during the day. It's funny because the people he passes during the day won't think twice about being 2 feet away from him. They don't know how much I would give to be them.

People tell me that long distance is hard. I get those looks at school when I tell people that I have a long distance boyfriend. There are those moments when my chest seizes and I can hardly breathe and I'm sobbing to myself because I miss him so much. There are also those moments where I feel numb to the situation and I try to not let it bother me. There are the moments that I think about seeing him and how much joy will flood into me with every second I'm near him. The truth is, he's everything to me. So each day we call and we text and we cry and we fight because I love him. I would be stupid to let life take him away.

1/22/13 ♡

"You've got that James Dean, daydream look in your eye"

Taylor Swift. Need I say more? This mega-babe had the entire world doubting that she could make another hit album, but with the release of 1989, she sold 1.287 million albums in the first week. Talk about woman crush. What I love about Taylor's new album is that she takes all the criticism she has received in the past and makes every song a pop punch in the face. Too many boyfriends? She's a wannabe? She has lost her touch? She's a terrible dancer? Her clever replies are woven into candid lyrics that Taylor never fails to deliver. She makes you feel like you're talking to your best friend over coffee. She makes you feel that cranking music as loud as you can will fix a bad day. She makes you feel like you shouldn't apologize for who you are. She makes you feel like you aren't alone. If that isn't musical genius, I don't know what is.

Here are some of my favorite lyrics from 1989, even though it is nearly impossible not to mention every single song of this album:

• "We found Wonderland, you and I got lost in it, and we pretended it could last forever" Wonderland
• "Oh my God, look at that face, you look like my next mistake" Blank Space
• "You can hear it in the silence, you can feel it on the way home, you can see it with the lights out, you are in love" You Are In Love
• "He's so tall and handsome as Hell, he's so bad but he does it so well" Wildest Dreams
• "Baby, I know places we won't be found, and they'll be chasing their tails trying to track us down" I Know Places
• "You're still all over me like a wine-stained dress I can't wear anymore" Clean

Thanks for being my theoretical BFF T-Swift. Next time you're in town, call me and we'll set up coffee.

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First things first, yippee! A blog to put into words everything I could never really say out loud. If you are reading this, I already love you! There is something to be said for you finding my blog and navigating through my pages. It truly is a labor of love, and I cannot wait for the fun that awaits. I may be the new kid on the block, but hey, I always dreamed of being the girl in school who had just transferred. There is beauty in being on the cusp of something new and frightening.